i want to cut because i want to physically see the pain i’m in and how deep i can go to see the amount of blood. the amount of blood means the amount of pain i’m in and i can’t wait to just get it out. i used to be able to cry and get my emotions out but i can’t cry anymore.
i can’t wait until i can cut after tomorrow. i have field hockey and cant cover my wrists with anything tomorrow night. and it’s only on monday nights. soooo i can cut after or on tuesday! im excited is that weird?